So far this summer has been a lot about self-growth, figuring out who I am and who I want to be. During the last month I realized there is a phrase I frequently use that I need to remove from my vocabulary: "I hope so." Now that may seem weird to you. Yes, hope is positive and optimistic, but the way that I use that phrase isn't. The only times I ever say, "I hope so" is when someone is trying to reassure me that everything will be fine. Instead of believing them or being positive with them, I say "I hope so" in a very discouraged, negative way. It's my way of saying you're wrong, it's not going to be ok, but I'm not going to say that to your face (I'm kind of passive aggressive... shocker).
I don't need my own negativity in my life! I realized in these past weeks of reflection that if there is going to be only one positive light in my life (which there should be more, and there normally is, but WHAT IF) I should be that positive light. I can't expect others to make an effort to cheer me up if I can't even make that effort for myself. I mean, I do ask a lot of people because I'm a diva, but even I can draw a line here and there.
Everything in our day to day is affected by our own mood first. When that mood is negative, everything will have a heavier weight than necessary. If the mood is positive, everything will be instantly happier. It's the easiest way to turn your day around. The phrase "make your own happiness" has never resonated with me more. My goal for the second half of summer is to always look on the bright side and basically be a ray of sunshine for everyone.
No more of this "hope" stuff! I will make things happen! I will move mountains! Or at least move my own cheeks with a smile.
Stay beautiful,
Toto
