Anti-inspiration

Ok kids, I'm back! Please forgive me for ignoring you all for so long. I've had a crazy schedule that would cause some weaker than I to break down under the pressure, but not me! I just eat a lot of popcorn and try to ignore my responsibilities. It's seemed to work well enough up to this point.
But a lack of time isn't the only thing that has kept me from writing on my beloved blog in a couple of months, it's also a lack of inspiration. I desperately want to be the kind of artsy, thoughtful person that just has these deep, humorous posts flow from them, but I'm not. If I want to write something I have to actively look for a topic that inspires me, I've never just stumbled upon something.
Does this make me a bad writer? Not a true journalist? Not creative?
I like to think not. Just that I need a little bit more of a push to find a topic. I need a different type of thoughtful inspiration.
This has, ironically, inspired me to write this post about not being inspired. I feel like in the creative world, whether it's writing, singing, painting, anything, we are pushed to always be the most original and most inspired. And that pressure can be the only thing that keeps you from reaching your full potential. It's not fair to expect yourself to produce the Mona Lisa or Wuthering Heights (that's my favorite book by the way) on a regular basis or even on your first try. So I hope that if you find yourself having the same problem that I do, you don't feel discouraged. If you aren't inspired you feel stuck just try something new! Instead of trying to paint a landscape just splash some paint on a canvas and see what you can make out of it. Instead of sticking to classical choral music take a break and see if you are any good at rapping. Even if these don't prove to be fruitful experience you'll at least have fun!
I know that most of my posts seem to turn into long thing ways of saying "love yourself!" But that's all I really want any of you to get from my thoughts, just to love who you are.
However, with trying to post more often (maybe even once a week, heaven forbid I post regularly) I'm going to try to make my posts have more variety.
I hope you stick around to see how I'm going to work to evolve my blog, my voice, and myself!

Stay beautiful,
Toto